Tuesday, 24 May 2011

long time no blog ey?!

heeeeeeeeeeylo! I haven't blogged in abolsutely ages just cause ive actually managed to make a life for myself. Last time I blogged I was with my boyfriend of 10 and a bit months and then he moved school and its all been a bit topsyturvy since then.. but im now happy as can be with my new boyfriend Joshua. Oh god this sounds like a proper teenage blog like omg i absolutely love him and all this crap.. but i do? well i'm pretty sure i do? its hard to say until ive lived a bit more of my life. I never really know what to write about.. :)

I suppose I could do a fashion blog as I do aspire to be a fashion journalist although I dont know if i'd be any good at it suppose I always yabber on about a load of crap. But if i had a proper job at a major magazine which is one of my hopes (as well as modelling) then I'd have to write about a specific subject.. But I have the crappest ideas in the world.. well I dont but they'd all be roughly about the same thing and I'd really love some random subjects submitted by people and then maybe I could research them and I know I'd have a lot of fun writing and finding out about them.

Then again I would absolutely love a blog where i could just RANT RANT RANT about the problems in my life and they'd probably seem so minor due to some of the maor issues in the world but they mean an awful lot to me:/ its really hard to decide. And for anyone reading this you must be thinking "wtf she wants to be a journalist but there is so many grammatical errors in her work" and i do sincerely apoligise about these but i'm such a lazy buggar that i really can't be arsed to go through and correct them. I know the saying : "Quality Not Quantity" but i have been dying to blog and i really just want to get it out of my system!

This is a real ramble of random things and i suppose just a catch up to my imaginary readers? I dont really want to promote cause i quite like the privacy that its REALLY unlikely that people i know are going to read this but i also like the fact that its open for people i dont know to read and perhaps share my point of view on things and empathise with me? yougetzmeh? gawd i really hate speaking fake-chav but its so in at the moment. I really hate following the crowd but sometimes this can be SO entertaining!:)

I have like a sort of OCD about originality, I hate being copied. I really do, even the littlest thing can annoy me such as I had the idea I could buy a permenant marker and write inspirational messages on the white front of my converse.. so I wrote 'be happy' on one pair and 'just smile' on the other. Well as I rolled into school today, one of my friends had her converse on and looky here she had written 'be happy'. oo i bit my tounge as i do, and held it in. Just little things like that really tick me off:/ to be honest i have come to terms with my very short temper.. although it did spring off a little earlier aswell. as my boyfriend implicitly said that he'd rather I didnt come and meet his friends with him although he wouldn't admit that he didnt want me there. well what was i to say? i know you dont want me there but im absolutely bored out of my brains and i would really love to come? urgh this has changed into a rantttttt. i apoligis deeply for my obscene behaviour.

I know most people around my age range are doing exams at the moment, regretfully this inludes me. I did a few a few weeks ago, they were maths. Considering im quite good at mtahs i did rather well in them, one qualifier off the highest you could get! And then today I had my English Reading Test which considering i was on holiday all of last week i managed pretty well on. The topic of my reading test was banana's? come on?!they always pick the most random subjects for things like that.. pfft!?

And as things go with my friends though, they are having problems. As some of them are developing quicker than others, some want to experiment with new things and others are telling them they're being silly. AAAAAHHHHHH all one big kerfuffle, I just try and be the mother of the group but not moddycoddle (ithink) them.. I let them do what they want but advise them on what is right.

I have a house party coming up in the next few weeks, and my friends have started mixing with some of the lads from my boyfriends school. Its funny because they all have their eye on one of them, and i know that when they're all out of it things are gonna come out! well me&my boyfriend will probably end up the ones that look after everyone! I always am the one that looks after everyone, whether I'm drunk or not i'm still the mother. And to be quite honest I do really enjoy that role, it gets respect&love and what more could you want?

Also as previously mentioned, I went on holiday last week. All that needs to be said on the matter was : It. Was. Awful. I could say a whole lot more about it but really you wouldn't want to hear about it!

Another thing that has twigged in my memory abotu a controversial subject that i quite liked.. our headmaster is very phsycological and he brought up an interesting point in an assembly this week. He was talking about how we're always discovering parts of ourselves that we never knew about. This really affected me as I'm always finding things out about me, like stuff that i like. And sometimes yeah i do lie to myself about things even in my head, some things that i really dont want to come to terms with. But im sure -almost positive- that in time I will develop a way to handle these things. Sometimes I reall do think that i'm growing up too fast for my own good, but that's a subject for another day ey?!

At this moment I am multitasking, at the start of this 'article' I was on the phone to my friend, and throughout it i have bee tweeting my friend Melina about a T4 competition I was hoping to enter. Although as things go it obviously wasn't meant to be that this was my oppertunity to break into the business as one of the dates that need to be totally free is the day of my prom. And thats an event I am not going to miss for the world! I have my dress, my vespa ride is sorted and i'm so looking forward to it!

This really has developed into a ramble but its made me feel a whole lot better. And typing out my problems makes me see that they aren't so bad and that i'm probably just being silly! There's a girl who I play netball with in the year below, and she's moving to Australia on Friday. I talk to her on and off, usually on the coach on the way to a match. And she is SOOOO lovely, and i really do think she'll be missed SO much! It makes me think about how she's gonna feel going up into a brand new country, a brand new climate with a whole different class of people? She's gotta be pretty damn strong to withold something like that. I really feel for her, I couldn't live without my bestfriends and my boyfriend. It sounds like a really stereotypical thing for a teenager to say and I'd agree on that because I have lost count of how many status' ive seen it on this WEEK let alone in my lifetime! But i truly mean it, my friends have got me through everything. And i hope that I've got them through some hard times in their lives, we've all been through some tackles. Some more than others but we get through them and we carry on smiling.

I was just thinking maybe i could do a post baout endorphins.. I know quite a lot about them? Which is weird for a girl of my age.. but things like that really do interest me. My boyfriend always calls me a know-it-all cause I always talk about things like this. I love even the word endorphin.. if you dont know what it is its a chemical in your brain that makes you happy. :)

well i think that should just about do for today. I feel a whole lot lighter now.. like I've got a lot off my chest even though I haven't really! Thats why I think I'd be a good journalist.. although they are supposed to inject humour into their work and i'm not a very funny person over text so maybe it wont be my fortay!

thanks for reading :):):):)):):):):)))))))))))

Wednesday, 2 February 2011

long time no blog, ey.


So yeah I haven't blogged in ages, not that anyone has noticed as I have no people looking at my blog because it's a piece of poop but I still like to blog. And also someone I'm following on both twitter&her blog (www.diaryofamuddledmind.blogspot.com) I really hope I got that right cause I'll feel a right fool if I haven't. Check it out, she's really easy to relate to :)

okay well I'll update ya then for anyone who actually is Reading this!

-made up with my best friend.
-went London (they haven't rang yet)

The man at the agency said it's likely I'll be a little too short but I'm still growing so fingers crossed!! I really do want this to happen though. Gosh.

And yeah I suppose nothing else has really happened, my boy friend of nearly 11 months is moving schools so that's kinda depressed me A LOT. A LOT. and I think we're breaking up then but I don't wanna think about that yet.

eurgh. Anyway ADIOS xx

Sunday, 23 January 2011

kept forgetting to blog, sorry.

So salut to my imaginary readers, nice to see you all;) well i haven't blogged in a few days cause I simply couldn't be arsed? nevermind anyway nothings really happened. Went out for the meal on Friday night, was nice :) fell out with my best friend, that's not so nice. And went on a day trip to Stratford-upon-Avon yesterday -where shakespeare lived- it was kinda boring. Nevermind :) it's only 2 days til London, the day after tomorrow. WOO:) I'm so nervous and it's getting kinda worse. I hope the nerves don't get the better of me. I really do, this could be my shot. God.

Anyway I think that'll do for now, I can't see anything happening today so I'll probably blog with a lot of nervous-ness tomorrow.


Thursday, 20 January 2011

woops late night blog.

I couldn't find the time to blog today, but I haven't really been that busy. Just couldn't be arsed to write down my thoughts as I had too much going through my mind. I've been trying outfits on since I got home from school as I have a birthday meal tommorrow for my friend Bianca. And I have no idea what to wear, I would put some photos on of possible outfits but I tried to access my blog on my blackberry and it took absolutely AGES so I gave up in the end. And plus I have no readers so what would be the point. I did try to promote my blog on models.com but it really didn't seem all that succesful. Anyway instead of photographing the outfits I'll have to make do with describing them!

Camel Coudroy Shirt (h&m)
blue scrunched jeans (given 'um)
tan mid t-bar heels (next)
obviously this is just the basics

grey converse top (JD)
blue jeans, faded (primark)
grey converse, battered (office)

But I guess they're both pretty similar, anyways I'll just decide in the morning. Well I'm knackered and I need my sleep as London is in just FOUR DAYS. ehehe sooo nervous.


Wednesday, 19 January 2011

sat in bed with tangfastics.

Title is the story of my life, I come home from school, get changed into my jimjams and sit in bed on my iPod all day. As i blog from my iPod as my laptop is a hootenanny and picks it's moments to refuse to work. But but but I need to venture it out soon because I urgently need to put my bombay bicycle club cd on there. dying to listen to it on my iPod but I ALWAYS forget to put it on when I have the peice of crap out. So it's 6 days until I go to London, although my readers (DONT HAVE ANY) won't be aware that I'm going to London. but long story short.. got scouted by a modelling agency at clothes show and they've invited me down to their London offices. which is frickin' amazing for me?!? but you know this'll probably sound absolutely showy-offy to my non-existent readers but I promise you I didn't mean it like that. I'm not SO keen on putting photos of myself on here because I got perv'ed on on facebook a few weeks back and it was a massive kerfuffle that I'd like to avoid!

But if I succeed in modelling and stuff then I'll link to some photos of me on the agency's website, kkkkkkkkk? Fingers crossed.

Think I'm done for the moment although i'll probably blog again later due to deathly boredom?


Tuesday, 18 January 2011

18th January -later.

Finished watching 'My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding' and I've got to admit it was one of the best programs I've ever seen -and I've watched every David tennant episode of Doctor Who so that says something! They have some high morals and yet they let the men grab their women and force them to kiss them. And also they let their daughters go out dressed like prostitutes?! well each to their own I suppose!

Everyones talking about MBFGW aswell, one of my favourite quotes from tonight episode was: "the more the dress makes you bleed, the better the dress". They were saying that most gypsy women gain scars from their wedding dresses. Don't think you'll ever catch me in a fluroscent pink wedding dress!

There's the program summed up basically, I'd love to live the life of a gypsy for just one day! Just to experience their way of life, I guess there's plenty of time left for me to experience it.. my mum always said I'd marry a gypsy :)

Adios! x

18th January :)

no no no:( I typed a really long entry just before this then went to check another tab and it all deleted. DEVASTATION

so yet to right as much as I can remember of it, so it's the return of 'My big fat gypsy wedding' tonight and I'm SO SO so in love with the entire program. It's just hilarious to see what they come up with. It's not something I'd admit often but I admire they're bravery of dressing and acting the way they do! you gotta admit they have a lot of courage to be the way they are. 

At school we're not allowed to call them 'gypsys', I suppose gypsys is better than pikeys isn't it?! But apparently they could find it offensive but that's a load of CRAP because they originate from Roman Gypsies! Travellers my arse!

I've been puzzling myself all day about what to write about in my blog although I suppose no one's really going to be Reading this so I could bitch about people and discuss my lovelife? but I'm not that sort of person who will tell their life story in ten minutes to someone on the bus, we've all met one! So I'm trying to find a subject to talk about.. I thought 'okay so what am I interested in?!' and one subject that stood out to me was modelling as it's something I suppose you could say I've been obsessed with. 

So their names are Alexandra & Caroline Clot. They're signed with 'Select model Management' and they're twins. They have exsquisite cheek bones and can show emotion really well trough their pictures. I'd love to see these two make it big!  

Alexandra -http://www.selectmodel.com/pda/ViewTalent.aspx?id=645

Caroline -http://www.selectmodel.com/pda/ViewTalent.aspx?id=644

tadaaaaaa! May post again later depending on my mood.